tension

it's very apparent now..
i've tasted of the Living Water..
so for it my soul longs..
but my flesh also longs..

i've seen the Truth..
the lies may try..
but they cannot win me over..
my heart has been won.
but still..there is this craving

i think it's hardest to see what's black and white..
in a sea full of greys..
its so easy to be lulled by the greys..
and even numbed..
but something..Someone inside..
reminds me what stands..
and what will not.

the great divorce..
there isn't room for the petty..
in the Greatness...
no room..
all or nothing..

what does that mean for here?
oh God...where feet may fail..
religion doesn't hold up..
but i trust that You are bigger than religion
and tradition
and a set of guidelines..
that Your relationship with Your creation..
goes so much deeper..
the Cross breaks so much logic
so many ideas of justice and fairness..

mm im sorely confused.
it feels so simple
but so complicated..
i wonder how You deal with it all sometimes..

what can i do...but come to You?