i feel like im going in circles..
hella unstable..

i try to convince myself that
this ..or...that will satisfy..
some deep craving..
for acceptance and affirmation..

i know...
but i know...its all lies
and the hollowness continues to dry me out..
and leave me gasping for air..
or..drowning quietly..

hm
i don't have answers..
and feel a little like an idiot
..ha..i sure did have answers a couple weeks ago..

where are they now?
i've been left with myself..
and ....i've never really liked myself..

all those drawers...
slam slam slam shut.
makeup and glass masks.
don't shatter just yet..

but..

but..
would You still call to me?
can You hear me?

uh