lights.

no thinking about it.
no fantisizing.
no talking about it.
no analyzing the possibilities.
no brining it up in conversation.

i have to admit that before today i wasnt particularly excited about the womanhood seminar, but in light of certain revelations, im excited and expectant. i need tools and guidance..
self discovery..through surrendering of self.

sometimes when i look back on my actions, my words, my reactions, i'm reminded of my immaturity and terrible..memories of my middle school years come to mind..never ever do i want to return to that place. this time, i pray, will bring healing and true "deeper life" change.

there's so much more i wish to write..
but i don't know how...
or how not to..so that my head and heart isnt clouded with...me.