in a way i feel like im being crushed.
like the burden is too much..
so im giving in..and..well
i dont know that its much better...

funny how the burden still feels the same.

but.
the beatings were too many..
too many times..
why should i care?
i mean maybe you have to...because well..you know..
but me? i can leave. i can not care.
right?
but i suppose that You've called me to ssomething...more..

cast my burdens on You?
take on Your yolk?
i've heard that before..
sounds too easy..
it couldn't work..
it couldn't possibly be that easy.

well.
okay. i'll take Your word for it.
ha...i can already feel myself fighting to hold on
fighting to take the reigns..
to do it myself.

why are hearts so dumb?
i don't want to care so much
it hurts too much..
my heart..
oh Lord..
so heavy..

God i look to You..
i am overwhelmed...
give me vision...to see things like You do.
and wisdom...You know just what to do..

white flags er'where.
well...im trying anyways..