resolve.

so i realized one day whilst driving in silence/
whining to God
that my approach is sooo fundamentally wrong.
running away from crushing/liking isn't...healthy
and is an expression of my insecurities.
dumb dumb face
ha
self deprecation.
like...cutting myself
to keep from getting hurt.
what?
yea.
i don't think that's what Baba had in mind.
ohhh my dumb dumb.
so i've resolved.
to ask Him to teach me
how not to be a scaredy-cat
oi.
still sooo much to learn.

i don't feel like typing no mores.
so i stop.