again.

this time i remember the dream sorta welll..

the first thing i remember is that people were drinking
i remember brianna yang passing me...but i don't know her...
for some strange reason i knew it was her..
i remember there being vodka on the counter..
and i remember a certain sister was there too and she had had a couple shots..
i remember thinking and i might have said that i never had shots..
then i remember thinking about shots of baileys..
next part, completely separate
we were all on like these bleacher like steps...
they looked like them but they were sometimes big enough for a table
and were cushiony enough to be a comfy bed
i remember Chris asking me if I wanted coffee
and i said yes, that i wanted it sweet..
i remember reaching up a couple steps to get the cup of coffee
then i remember turning around and like facing my desk or something
and i was listening to "kiss me" by ed sheeran
i remember i played it twice...
i remember a girl near me commenting on how she liked a cover of the song..
next erither tonia or ibs was beside me
we were laying down and talking...
i remember her telling me that she woke up, went to work
then went to school and that it was overwhelming
i remember that she had some nude shimmery lipstick on..i really liked it apparently
next,we were in what looked like a version of my old art classroom
the low tables, the chairs, mr. nichols was there..
but i also remember chris and prisca being there
i remember chris asking prisca if she could help out since she would be sick and miss the flight to otr..
i remember not remembering that prisca was planning on going to otr..
i think i asked him why prisca wasnt going any more...because i didn't get how she knew that she would be sick then...
he explained something about seasonal sickness...and that his and my schedule alternated...
im not really sure why that mattered
then i remember me, chris, and mr. nichols were putting up the chairs..
i remember i put up a chair and then got suuuuperrrr tireddd
i think i put a chair over my head and told myself i would just close my eyes for a few moments
i remember snoring and seeing my black boots..
i remember being surprised that mr. nichols or chris didnt notice
so i thought i'd sleep some more
then i remember that i thought i should try to wake up...
-now to real life-
weird i dont exactly remember how it started...
but i do remember hearing things close to and around my head
and the sound kept getting faster as the sleep paralysis took
i remember my eyes being open
i also remember feeling myself trying to move my arms and shake my fists
well i actually felt myself do that...
but my eyes were open and i knew my body hadn't moved
so i starting screaming "Jesus" in my head above the noise
over and over again...i tried mouthing it...but nothing came out of my mouth..
im not even sure if my mouth was moving...
then i remember noticing a "pop" color change in my room
and all was silent and i could move.

tonight i've been waking up....basically every hour.
this is far from the first time that ive experienced sleep paralysis..
im not sure whats going on...but i request your prayers.