buds.

so much has happened.
so much to process.

i intend to start from today..and go backwards.
...sorta.

but for today.
there seems to be something..fishy in the water..
on my end.
not foul..but..present none the less.
and its bothersome.
i don't want it..
...cuz in full bloom it wrecks.
so heart change is the prayer req.
i can't will myself out of ...."feelings"

dub.reds.