"..and its leaf does not wither.."

i actually feel slightly psychotic.
i've been getting really irritated lately..
not only do i get irritated,
but it's as if my threshold for tolerance/acceptance
has been drastically reduced..
in my mind and under my breath..
i snap, left and right..
and my outward response:
cool attitude and rigidity.
sigh.
i don't got what it takes.
so.
help me look to You.
trust that You..will equip me..
and be my Source.
cuz..
i can't muster up the will.
is this what You meant?