Saturday, August 31, 2013 0 comments
wut.
i just can't right now..
i can't..

oh pride, just shut your face won't you?
shut your face and let me live.

is this the freedom You were talking about?
can i be free from this too?
Friday, August 30, 2013 0 comments
cleanse me, Baba..
i hear Your words echo in my heart..
but other words are louder..
ah..they have been fed
cleanse me, Baba

empty me of what my ears have heard..
my eyes have seen..
my mind has thought..
the words are just too many..
too loud to hear the whisper..
the whisper ebbs and grows..
but now its just a tinkling..

cleanse me, Baba..
and pour through the emptiness..
like the hot oil that coats..and covers.
fill me with Your word..
oh that the feeding may cease..
disrupt and renew.
that Your desires...Your desires would be mine.
Thursday, August 29, 2013 0 comments

crave.

sigh,
that is all.
Monday, August 26, 2013 0 comments
i want very much to be loved..
by those i love.

yea.. yea.
Tuesday, August 20, 2013 0 comments
racing...racing..
and i can't sleep.

hm.
these are stupid..
like..they're ACTUALLY stupid..
but i'm still not sure how to deal..

well..there is the one way..
thank You...that i can come to You with my nonsense.




Monday, August 19, 2013 0 comments
i am..who i am..who i am..
i must be tomi.
being tomi is just dandy.

as much as i admire this or that person..
i have been created to be tomi

most difficult..yet the easiest..
to extend grace towards..?
me.

oh, when shall i learn to love you, tomi..
well..to love you...in the way He desires..?

on another note..
its odd how i keep offering you the measuring stick..
as if you actually know how to use it..
but that's not your fault..
the measuring stick was never to be your burden to bear..
its unfair for me to offer it to you..
and all this does is cause me grief..
sigh.

just love me, ok?


Friday, August 16, 2013 0 comments

Thursday, August 15, 2013 0 comments
i have decided to follow Jesus,
i have decided to follow Jesus,
i have decided to follow Jesus,
no turning back, no turning back.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013 0 comments
my heart began to slow the moment i saw it..
and then i knew..
i'm deeper than i originally thought..

but then again...i knew..
and it's ok...
but is it?
i feel that it is..
shrug..

this place... this moment,
is good.
Sunday, August 11, 2013 0 comments
all along..
we're basically the same person..
except............
Saturday, August 10, 2013 0 comments
its detrimental..
the way i talk about this..
in my head,
in my heart..

Father, i can't see it..
they say it..
but i don't believe it..
...can't believe it..

can You help with this too?
Tuesday, August 6, 2013 0 comments
but really though....
the tendencies,
reactions,
and actions of people..
of humans
are a blimey mystery.

sometimes i feel it futile to even try to understand..
to speculate and conclude..
to guess..
it all feels so bloody...useless.

yea, there are patterns...sort of..
...but we aren't equations.


as frustrating as it all feels..
its kind of ....exciting..


Sunday, August 4, 2013 0 comments
so. many. feels.

ugh.
man i hate the feels.
time to fight.

...but already?
reaaallyyyy?
now?

sigh.
can't i just bask?

what do You say about me?
 
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