dear Jesus,
sometimes i wish that i didnt feel so much.

its really weird how all of a sudden i have this ridiculous urge to stop caring.
you know..like..
when you have so much to do..
but end up vegging and stressing out about how much you have to do?

yes that.
except...this is like with caring
about people and their feelings
about "doing well"..or doing my best.
about loving...people..things...etc..

i just kinda want to be selfish...or just run away.. and not feel cruddy about it.

don't hate me please.