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Hello, Mercy, I have been searching for You lately...

oh heart, if you would...be quiet..
actually..no
..your aches remind me that..this life..
this earth...will never satisfy..
that this earth..our world...is broken..
and no measure of mindless routine, chatter or entertainment
will ever fix it..
heal it...heal me..

Someone greater has to be in control.
im but a product of this broken world...
but in You, I'm redeemed..made new..
no more a product....but a new creation..

oh Lord...when will i believe this with my entire being..
i feel like running..but to where...to whom?
i know the answer to this one...
i've re-enacted it over and over in my head..
i need You...no...no
i need You..

so here i return...broken..
bleeding...bitter...shaken...dirty..
but hopeful..
You make all things new..right?
You make everything beautiful......right?
...i trust...You.
help me to trust You.