well. I havent blogged in a while. I have alot on my mind and on my heart. I should spill so I can focus this week.

-> There's not much time left in this school year. I have mixed feelings about that.
On one hand..I'm happy, no work for like 3 months.
On the other hand..I'm going to miss people, my plans for the summer are faaar from solidified, and idk I'm scared for my g.p.a.

-> My Faith. I'd like to say that I'm completely and undeniably strong in it...that I pray and read my Bible every day...but that's soo far from the truth. I want to love Him with ALL of my heart....
[scratch that.] mid thought...
I'm learning...thanks to a looooooooooooooooooong talk with Father..to TRUST Him, my future is in His hands, all that's left for me to do is trust Him...after all, He knows what He's doing, me...not so much lol. YAY! Thank You Lord! I'm going to make a promise to make time to talk to Him everyday...its a definite must...

->Lately I've been wanting a boo-face...bahaha..[boo-face]...idk maybe I'm just noticing all these couples around me and I'm like goshdarnit...when will it be my turn? in His time no doubt...but wheeen? and listening to Robin Thicke is definitely not helping lol.. I was talking to Frankie about it...she said nothing that I dont already know..."in His time" ...yes..I knooowww.. I guess I just havent really thought too much about it in a while..its a weird feeling with ups and downs...ups..because I know that when it does happen in God's time, it'll be juuuust right and just for me...and just the thought that my Father in heaven knows me so well and has created someone with me in mind..that will help me grow..and who I will learn from but also the opposite...I'll help him grow, and he'll learn from me :] ...downs, because I dont think I've met that person yet..and with that comes impatience, and with impatience come discouragement and doubt.. BOO.
..I like the little sweet things...I also like the BIG sweet things...I like touch. affection...when you see me in my own little world...interrupt me with a shower of your affection. I like compassion and thoughtfulness. cutesy things...not cutesy to the point of barf-worthy...but just sweet small gestures. touch my cheek. kiss my nose. just sit with me in silence. smiiile at me. lay with me in the field and stare at the stars. walk with me in through the park. eww...this is starting to get disgusting..lmbo yeaaa I'm sort of a hopeless romantic..we'll see what God'll do...yes?
merrrr I want a boo-faaaacceee.. fraaann crush..is dissipating...well its goshdarn near squasshed...talked to Shin-he about it..yea. its just a friend crush. merrr

sleep to dream. that's what I plan to do right now.
kisses for youuu [muahz]
tomisaurus