imperfection...ouch eh?
To understand or at least sort of understand just how imperfect you are...geez that's quite a doozy..I'm not perfect...incredibly far from it.. There's so many things that I do and regret...or that I dont do and end up regretting. I end up either over-thinking or under-thinking. Like, in the simpler, everyday situations of life...what does God want me to do, how does He want me to behave? How do I live in a way that glorifies Him and shows Him off and not...me. I had soooo much trouble with this today...I realize that it just led to me being selfish and heaven help me...prideful. Gaaahhhh...its like I can't escape this monster inside of me. Then, it dawned on me...or rather He revealed it to me...I can't do this by myself..by nature I'm selfish and prideful..If I try and do this alone its like the blind leading the blind...and where does that get me? yeaa..exactly. How can I say that I surrender ALL...and still try to point myself in the way I should go...and act. Not once did I think, earlier today..."Hm..what would JESUS do in this situation?" Do I even know what Jesus would do? I need to read the Bible more...ALOT more...Pride...its a monster, my love....tis true. I have to learn to understand that I am not greater nor less than anyone...and therefore I have no room at alll to judge. God help me with this..I find comfort however in the fact, that He understands that we are...imperfect..He's patient and will wait for us. and...AND His love...His perfect love will always be there to run back to...no matter what... *sigh* Pray along with me on this one...won't you? It's going to be a daily battle, I know...but...i also know that I have a Savior, that'll right there fighting with me...daily...and with His help...Success is inevitable. [let HOPE riseee...and darkness tremble in your Holy Light]

I think I will take a short nap now.
kisses for you! [muahz]
-tomisaurus