like i can't even..
i'd much rather be numb

like i feel so dumb
and insignificant
and disregarded

sometimes i say to myself
i'll leave

i'll drive to north ga or tennessee
and find a job in a diner or something
i'll live out of my car for a couple weeks
until my tips make a place affordable
i'll make sure to send my car payments
but otherwise i'll forget my former life
and just be this waitress
at a diner or something
in north ga or tennessee

people just quit dont they?
walk away and dont look back?

i know i'd regret it down the line
...start missing my brothers
and dreaming dreams again

but right now..
i feel like a shell
a hollow shell

but i'll stay
You're IT, i know it..
but i feel like a dead person
a creature with faded eyes
sometimes im surprised to feel my heartbeat

but You're IT

when Moses said he wouldnt go without You
i wondered if i'd do the same
i wondered if i could tell/pray for others to do the same
i wondered if it was worth it..

ugh i feel so dumb
like an idiot.

..and this is why.. "nope"
nope. nope. nope.