"you act like an outcast in your own home"

im trying to figure out why the accusation..
why any accusation...assumption..
makes me want to tear his eyes out
until he realizes how little he really knows about me..

how little he's really willing to understand about me.

hm
but...i was happy when he acted younger..
when i was able to be the older sister..
damn.
so its just that i feel disrespected...isn't it.
but i wonder..
does that mean that i have pride issues..
or...that he's just a disrespectful asshole..

actually i think i just wanted to call him an asshole there..
maybe its somewhere in between
maybe we both have something to work on..

but i feel like the feeling is one-sided..
maybe that one side is the one i should worry about...
sigh.