heartbroken

it scares me to think about the implications
of...Zimmerman getting off scotch-free..

it scares me even more to think that its actually happened before..

im usually the one to give the benefit of the doubt..
to try to reason things out..
attempt to understand...

perhaps im just naive..

Trayvon Martin could have very well been my little brother..
he may as well have been my little brother..
by His grace..that will not be the portion of any of my brothers.

tonight i asked God why He made us, "black people"
so different from all other races..
why he made our hair texture so different..
our skin so dark?

whenever i watch those movies..
you know..the ones about the jim crow era..or segregation
i wonder..why people hated us so much..
why we were thought to be so inferior..so unlovable..
so undeserved of time, care and even respect?
because of skin-color..
and furthermore...do i have the capacity to hate like that?

what is my response?
a cry for..... justice...?
a cry for...peace?
a cry for redemption?
restoration?
renewal..?
idk...something
something has to change.
something will change? right?...
Jesus come back allreeaaddyyyyyyyy....aghhh

idk who reads this..but if you happen to sign this: http://www.change.org/petitions/prosecute-the-killer-of-our-son-17-year-old-trayvon-martin#