sobered.

..sigh...
my heart keeps playing cruel, cruel games on me.
well, im sobered and the hang-over is killer..
more painful than i expected..
but sobered none the less..
its funny how i sort of suspected..
but when those butterflies in my tummy start flying..
my better judgment is given the corner to inhabit..
and ignored..
she festers a bit...
and returns now full bloom
"wow tomi, you're real stupid to have hoped..."
i know she doesn't mean it...i don't think..

lesson learned?
i doubt it..
im sure those butterflies will start up again..
and my heart will start playing games..
but..this time...my better judgment will have a voice..
and silence my heart beat...gently..
but for now..
getting rid of the hang-over..
or rather suppressing it..
might have to do..

onward.
a new opportunity..