actually...

let's talk.
let's put it all out on the table.

i dont feel. that might be the problem...if there's nothing impossible with God why do i feel as if this is unfixable? words have been exchanged. feelings have been hurt. lives shaken. but don't dwell on it. don't face it.
you'll feel too much.

i can't even watch movies any more, listen to songs, read books that have to do with broken marriages being restored..maybe its because i believe this situation is impossible..or maybe its because im afraid.
but what if this is God's will...that they're separated...or is it just that God's grace will abound because we are sinful beings?

if the God that she believes in and serves is the same One that he serves and believes in...who's right in this situation? should that even matter to me?

im 20. supposedly i should get married soon. im immature and soo sinful. i feel as though i understand absolutely nothing on this subject and it scares me to death. i see the frills the feeling...on tv in movies..but what happens when the lilies stop blooming and the guitar is out of tune? what happens when the leaves turn colors and the water turns to ice? what happens when we miss a beat and when the hummingbird's injures its wing? what happens then?

i want the real thing..
i won't settle for 'love' alone.