...so...that asian dude..
in a dream...sorta
i realized who he was..

..HA

....

i feel like i have noone to discuss this with...and its sort of eating my insides..
he moved out...of the house..
i thought i was ok with it...
but now im not so sure.
how am i supposed to feel about this?

lost.

i kinda missed this..

man the search for the substance...one's purpose in this life..
this little life...this wee glimmer in the sun..
can get a little disheartening...when there's chaos..
but mostly when there's silence..

i dont know what im doing with my life...
better yet.. im not sure what He wants me to do with this life's He's given me..
or even what He's doing with this life..
oi..im soo lost

its funny...im kind of ...chill about?
like i think im ok with this...not knowing thing..
i guess ive sort of come to the consensus that loving people...
this is it..
doesn't matter what i end up doing in terms of "career"
loving God first...and...loving people..
...this is it.