the drive home

..before i knew it..
the sky grew darker
and the clouds set in..
the air, wet with tension..

my singing stopped
as my heart sank
and i realized that things were changing

fast...
faster than i thought..
than i imagined

nothing would remain the same

as day turned quickly to night
as my drive home soon ended
a flash of bright..but serene pink
and I'm reminded that
"Hope is the thing with feathers
that perches in the soul"
Hope..

home now in wait
of the rain..
the rain that brings change..
life change..
but not destruction..
peace.

-with love from the heart of tomisaurus

rant.

wow..
way to show your maturity.
im NOT stupid
its funny that the times that God gives us to show love,
His love
we saunter on by..poo all over it..

and then wonder why we're called holy rollers
hypocrites..
fakes..

checkmate.
you've proven me right.
congrats.

AMI

So...AMI Rev. is over...
yea im going to be selfish and talk about myself first..

hmm..
i guess i feel as though i didnt receive what i expected to..
im left with a sense of
staleness...hollowness...emptiness..
whats wrong with me?


hm..perhaps my intentions were skewed..
wrong even..
perhaps my heart wasnt in the right place..

runaway..

i guess i feel as though i failed?
not only spiritually, but physically..

forgotten..

i have alot on my mind
and
even more on my heart..

even though i feel like this weekend was a fail on my part...God never fails..

with all the sessions...with all the seminars
He's equipped me with the tools to further implore and explore his Grace and Love
and for that reason...im thankful..and excited..

i can honestly say that i have a desire to seek His face and His presence
and how to understand how REAL it is in my life..

prayer...

enough about me..

Susie <3
oi i love that girl..
she's been such a blessing in my life thus far..
living proof of the power of God's love and grace..
she gave her life this weekend..
:]
pause..

beauty in such simplicity..

my heart.

its funny how live brings people together...
and splits people apart..

reminiscing on Freshman year..
on how simple and new and fun everything seemed..
on the people that i thought i'd spend the next 4 years closest to..
on my acidwash skinny jeans

i look back on those times and think...
gosh...i miss it..
ignorance is bliss no doubt..

now i look at who i've become
what i know now..
what i understand..
what i've been through..

there's still a couple of things that i would change..
but where i'm at now..this moment..
and all the pain this past year...that led up to it..
has/had so much purpose..

God has a way of leading us through pain and struggle straight to Him..
this year is one of those cases..
learning about Love, and Grace...was worth it all..
and im still learning..

"but because of Grace, because of Your Mercy..I stand here unashamed.."

kisses for youu [muahhz!]
-tomisaurus

times like these..

sometimes i feel forgotten..
most times i feel out of place..
i feel inadequate all the time..

these times.
times like these
.. are unfortunate

but THEN..

there are times i feel happy..
times i feel at peace..
times i feel loved..

times like these..
these GOOD times..
are what make all this called life
worth living.

i digress
kisses for yooouu [muahz!]
-tomisaurus

you know...sometimes i wish i were pretty.